Anxiety

Proverbs 3:5,6 says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths."

Is it really that easy? In 8 days Jamie, Nikita, and I will be leaving the two boys and three little ones for 7 days. Yes, my mother-in-law will be here each evening and overnight, and a young man is coming in to help each day, and my incredible home school friends are providing dinners, and my best friend is stopping in with McDonalds for lunch twice....but I still worry.

It's Dante really that is worrying me. He loves 4 people, and 3 of us are leaving. Oh he loves Zach too, I suppose I should say he loves 5 people. But Zach isn't much for babies, he is however Amelia's hero. Alexander is the one who will bear the brunt of Dante's behaviors for a full week. We never know what to expect. Tuesday night he slept straight through; last night he was up at 1am for over an hour crying inconsolably. We have decided that while we are gone he'll take his dinners in his carseat so he cannot head bang on the wooden high chair. And I have set up a portacrib with foam around the top rail that Alexander can put him into if he has a temper tantrum that won't calm down.

And Sunny worries me too. I know she is our daughter, but I am already feeling the guilt at the sadness we will be causing her during her adjustment period. One part of the what the Bible says has been easy lately -- "pray without ceasing"!!

Here is a quick picture of Dante and Alexander. Dante just climbed up on the couch to "read" next to his big brother... these are the moments I cherish.

God is good!